What it mean to be a doctor?

Doctor is a job that mostly everyone dream of. Everyone study hard to get good results. What is the first choice to every students put when fill in application for university? Of course. The first two spots is doctor. Flexibility is a necessary skill. 

Flexibility…

-Bend easy without breaking.

-The ability to be easily modified.

Life journey

Sky touches our heart day by day

Somewhere during the journey of life

While flying through the sky, we sometimes face turbulence or

Lightning and thunder

Sometimes we go around or have an emergency landing

However, we do not give up

Sky that can never be flown alone

The sky right now is the only one and the most precious one

Reading " WHY MEN DON'T LISTEN AND WOMEN CAN'T READ MAPS"

Reading book recommend by my friend. The title is "Why Men don't listen and Women can't read maps" by Allan and Barbara Pease. It was a good book with awesome writers. The first page of the book making me laugh and giggle. It was definitely true. I get to know myself more better. Why I am as a women is like that, acts like that? There is a whole lots of reasons and answers. But, it also makes me understanding on why men think like that. Women always said men do not care about their feelings and emotions. Actually, the truth is not because men do not care but they most react based on facts. But for women, we usually react with our emotions. We put feeling in almost everything we do. That is why women is a mother and not men.

It doesn't matter where you start, it matters where you end

My supervisor asked me to attend master students progress presentation yesterday. He told me that you can comment or ask any questions to them. The first student to present is a PhD student. He doing on veneer plywood. After finish present, my supervisor asked me do you have any question to ask. I innocently asked him without any hesitation why you choose to this project differently instead of the way people use to do it. He keeps quiet for a moment before answer me. My supervisor after he finished explained said let me see your justification. My supervisor then asked me what is justification. I told him justification in research is explain why did you choose to do this project. What is the problems that arise making want to do research on it. My supervisor said I asked a good question. This is because the student didn't fully explained why he want to research on it. I'm really sorry for him. I didn't mean for him to be lectured by my supervisor. I just very curious about it and I asked him bluntly. The next two students almost the same things happen. My supervisor then asks them do they have enough time to complete the project in time. I'm feel sorry for them. At the same time, I can't understand why they have to use so complicated methods and machine that isn't available here in university just to do the research. I just think there maybe a simple method to the research and even can obtain the same result that is expected. I just can't understand. Time is limit and yet the method for their research is so complicated and hard to achieve. Yes, the result can be achieve but what if you fail to get the result you expected and then you need to re-do the whole project together. I'm understand they are doing research in master level. They want to show that they can perform well at high level. But for me, a good research is not about expensive machine or complicated method. At the end what they want to see is whether you achieve your objectives, whether you get the expected result. The beginning process is not important. What matter is you complete the race. You finished the project until the end.

The special place in my heart

My mentor asked me these not long ago. She asks did I have boyfriend. I immediately answers No. She then asks perhaps you have someone that you like. I answers No. In fact I did have someone that I like but I choose to answer No. The reason is because we are not together. We don't even start any relationship between us. The only relationship we have is friends. He is the first person who makes me fall in love truly for him. In fact, the love I have for him is sincere. I sincere like him. However, for the first time in my life, I choose not to pursue him. I want him to happy with people he loved even the person is not me. For the first time, I enjoyed being single. I enjoyed being with my loved one especially my family. I enjoy knowing that in spite of everything, God still love me for who am I. And I know He has great plans for me. And if God's plan include him, I will still meet again. And if God's plan didn't include him, I thank God because He allows him to be a part of my life, the person that I meet in the process of my long journey. To him who has special place in my heart, I truly thank you for being part of my life journey. Wherever you are, be sure that I will always be there for you.

Life as an intern

Life as an intern is not as exciting as it used to me. For me, for the past four weeks, it was the memories that I wish I will never remember it. In spite all of the difficulties I faced, it bought me to another step in knowing myself deeper. It was during practical, that I discover that this is what I have been thinking, this is how I think, this is how I doing things. Of all every person, God actually allow my nasty supervisor to know my weakness and strength. My supervisor is a typical Chinese guy where he critic more than he praise someone. The words that came from his mouth is hurtful and nasty to hear. But, he's amazing person. He can spot your best talent and make full use of it. He knows what I good and capable of. He knows what I'm lack of. That's one of the very good points about him. He trained me in a  harsh and stern way. He discipline me strictly. He puts expectation on me. I actually learn his intention in a hard way. I know he trying to build my talents up, he trying to make my talents shine. He molds me into a strong person. Someone who is strong despite any situations they face.

Together for life

Read church bulletin. One of the content in it is the marriage course. The theme for marriage course is "Together for life". Marriage is not about one person. It is about two people living till life together till death do them part. It also mean accepting weakness and strength, likes and dislikes. That what make a marriage. Even I'm not yet married, I observe this in people around me. The most closet one is my parents. Its truly amazing how God can bring them together to be husband and wife. My dad is a hot tempered person while my mum is much more gentle. Their personality totally clash with one another. But for me, it a match made in heaven. My mum always know how to calm my dad's temper. Is like in the family, my dad is the bad guy and my mum is the good guy. But, the truth is when my mum angry, her temper is hotter than my dad. That is the scarier part when a women get angry. I recently attend my cousin's wedding. I love the song that being sing at the reception. It also will be my prayer when I get married and I hope my future one will promise as what the song said to cherish me and love me always. 

The Marriage Prayer

 He:
Father, I said till
Death do us part
I want to mean it
With all of my heart
Help me to love you
More than I love her
Then I know I can
Love her more
Than anyone else

And bring her in Your presence today
Make her what You want her to be

I pray to hear her heart
I pray she'll love you more
I pray to cherish and serve her
And we'll bring you glory today, I pray

She:
Father, I said till
Death do us part
I want to mean it
With all of my heart
Help me to love you
More than I love him
Then I know I can
Love him more
Than anyone else

And bring him in Your presence today
Make him what You want him to be

I pray to hear his heart
I pray he'll love you more
I pray to strengten and serve him
We'll bring you glory today, I pray

He:
Lord help me love her
As you love the Church, Your bride
She:
Help me to submit to him
As I submit to You, my life

Both:
I pray (I pray) to hear her heart
I pray (I pray) he'll love you more
I pray (I pray) to cherish and serve her
And we'll bring you glory today, I pray

I pray to hear her heart
I pray she'll love you more
I pray to cherish and serve her
And we'll bring you glory today, I pray

This is my prayer. Amen

Process of transformation

As Maria Robinson once said, “Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” Nothing could be closer to the truth. But before you can begin this process of transformation you have to stop doing the things that have been holding you back.

Here are some ideas to get you started:

1. Stop spending time with the wrong people.– Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of you. If someone wants you in their life, they’ll make room for you. You shouldn’t have to fight for a spot. Never, ever insist yourself to someone who continuously overlooks your worth. And remember, it’s not the people that stand by your side when you’re at your best, but the ones who stand beside you when you’re at your worst that are your true friends.
2. Stop running from your problems. – Face them head on. No, it won’t be easy. There is no person in the world capable of flawlessly handling every punch thrown at them. We aren’t supposed to be able to instantly solve problems. That’s not how we’re made. In fact, we’re made to get upset, sad, hurt, stumble and fall. Because that’s the whole purpose of living – to face problems, learn, adapt, and solve them over the course of time. This is what ultimately moulds us into the person we become.
3. Stop lying to yourself. – You can lie to anyone else in the world, but you can’t lie to yourself. Our lives improve only when we take chances, and the first and most difficult chance we can take is to be honest with ourselves.
4. Stop putting your own needs on the back burner. – The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too. Yes, help others; but help yourself too. If there was ever a moment to follow your passion and do something that matters to you, that moment is now.
5. Stop trying to be someone you’re not. – One of the greatest challenges in life is being yourself in a world that’s trying to make you like everyone else. Someone will always be prettier, someone will always be smarter, someone will always be younger, but they will never be you. Don’t change so people will like you. Be yourself and the right people will love the real you.
6. Stop trying to hold onto the past. – You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading your last one.
7. Stop being s cared to make a mistake. – Doing something and getting it wrong is at least ten times more productive than doing nothing. Every success has a trail of failures behind it, and every failure is leading towards success. You end up regretting the things you did NOT do far more than the things you did.
8. Stop berating yourself for old mistakes. – We may love the wrong person and cry about the wrong things, but no matter how things go wrong, one thing is for sure, mistakes help us find the person and things that are right for us. We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in our past. But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here NOW with the power to shape your day and your future. Every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a moment that is yet to come.
9. Stop trying to buy happiness. – Many of the things we desire are expensive. But the truth is, the things that really satisfy us are totally free – love, laughter and working on our passions.
10. Stop exclusively looking to others for happiness. – If you’re not happy with who you are on the inside, you won’t be happy in a long-term relationship with anyone else either. You have to create stability in your own life first before you can share it with someone else.
11. Stop being idle. – Don’t think too much or you’ll create a problem that wasn’t even there in the first place. Evaluate situations and take decisive action. You cannot change what you refuse to confront. Making progress involves risk. Period! You can’t make it to second base with your foot on first.
12. Stop thinking you’re not ready. – Nobody ever feels 100% ready when an opportunity arises. Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow beyond our comfort zones, which means we won’t feel totally comfortable at first.
13. Stop getting involved in relationships for the wrong reasons. – Relationships must be chosen wisely. It’s better to be alone than to be in bad company. There’s no need to rush. If something is meant to be, it will happen – in the right time, with the right person, and for the best reason. Fall in love when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely.
14. Stop rejecting new relationships just because old ones didn’t work. – In life you’ll realize that there is a purpose for everyone you meet. Some will test you, some will use you and some will teach you. But most importantly, some will bring out the best in you.
15. Stop trying to compete against everyone else. – Don’t worry about what others doing better than you. Concentrate on beating your own records every day. Success is a battle between YOU and YOURSELF only.
16. Stop being jealous of others. – Jealousy is the art of counting someone else’s blessings instead of your own. Ask yourself this: “What’s something I have that everyone wants?”
17. Stop complaining and feeling sorry for yourself. – Life’s curveballs are thrown for a reason – to shift your path in a direction that is meant for you. You may not see or understand everything the moment it happens, and it may be tough. But reflect back on those negative curveballs thrown at you in the past. You’ll often see that eventually they led you to a better place, person, state of mind, or situation. So smile! Let everyone know that today you are a lot stronger than you were yesterday, and you will be.
18. Stop holding grudges. – Don’t live your life with hate in your heart. You will end up hurting yourself more than the people you hate. Forgiveness is not saying, “What you did to me is okay.” It is saying, “I’m not going to let what you did to me ruin my happiness forever.” Forgiveness is the answer… let go, find peace, liberate yourself! And remember, forgiveness is not just for other people, it’s for you too. If you must, forgive yourself, move on and try to do better next time.
19. Stop letting others bring you down to their level. – Refuse to lower your standards to accommodate those who refuse to raise theirs.
20. Stop wasting time explaining yourself to others. – Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it anyway. Just do what you know in your heart is right.
21. Stop doing the same things over and over without taking a break. – The time to take a deep breath is when you don’t have time for it. If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting. Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see things clearly.
22. Stop overlooking the beauty of small moments. – Enjoy the little things, because one day you may look back and discover they were the big things. The best portion of your life will be the small, nameless moments you spend smiling with someone who matters to you.
23. Stop trying to make things perfect. – The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists, it rewards people who get things done.
24. Stop following the path of least resistance. – Life is not easy, especially when you plan on achieving something worthwhile. Don’t take the easy way out. Do something extraordinary.
25. Stop acting like everything is fine if it isn’t. – It’s okay to fall apart for a little while. You don’t always have to pretend to be strong, and there is no need to constantly prove that everything is going well. You shouldn’t be concerned with what other people are thinking either – cry if you need to – it’s healthy to shed your tears. The sooner you do, the sooner you will be able to smile again.
26. Stop blaming others for your troubles. – The extent to which you can achieve your dreams depends on the extent to which you take responsibility for your life. When you blame others for what you’re going through, you deny responsibility – you give others power over that part of your life.
27. Stop trying to be everything to everyone. – Doing so is impossible, and trying will only burn you out. But making one person smile CAN change the world. Maybe not the whole world, but their world. So narrow your focus.
28. Stop worrying so much. – Worry will not strip tomorrow of its burdens, it will strip today of its joy. One way to check if something is worth mulling over is to ask yourself this question: “Will this matter in one year’s time? Three years? Five years?” If not, then it’s not worth worrying about.
29. Stop focusing on what you don’t want to happen. – Focus on what you do want to happen. Positive thinking is at the forefront of every great success story. If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, and you pay close attention, you’ll often find that you’re right.
30. Stop being ungrateful. – No matter how good or bad you have it, wake up each day thankful for your life. Someone somewhere else is desperately fighting for theirs. Instead of thinking about what you’re missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone else is missing.

Life lessons

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I’ve learned that no matter how much I care some people just don’t care back.

I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life, but whom you have in your life that counts.

I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I’ve learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I’ve learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I’ve learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I’ve learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And, just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I’ve learned that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt, and you will hurt in the process.

I’ve learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I’ve learned that heroes are people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.