What it mean to be a doctor?

Doctor is a job that mostly everyone dream of. Everyone study hard to get good results. What is the first choice to every students put when fill in application for university? Of course. The first two spots is doctor. Flexibility is a necessary skill. 

Flexibility…

-Bend easy without breaking.

-The ability to be easily modified.

Life journey

Sky touches our heart day by day

Somewhere during the journey of life

While flying through the sky, we sometimes face turbulence or

Lightning and thunder

Sometimes we go around or have an emergency landing

However, we do not give up

Sky that can never be flown alone

The sky right now is the only one and the most precious one

Reading " WHY MEN DON'T LISTEN AND WOMEN CAN'T READ MAPS"

Reading book recommend by my friend. The title is "Why Men don't listen and Women can't read maps" by Allan and Barbara Pease. It was a good book with awesome writers. The first page of the book making me laugh and giggle. It was definitely true. I get to know myself more better. Why I am as a women is like that, acts like that? There is a whole lots of reasons and answers. But, it also makes me understanding on why men think like that. Women always said men do not care about their feelings and emotions. Actually, the truth is not because men do not care but they most react based on facts. But for women, we usually react with our emotions. We put feeling in almost everything we do. That is why women is a mother and not men.

It doesn't matter where you start, it matters where you end

My supervisor asked me to attend master students progress presentation yesterday. He told me that you can comment or ask any questions to them. The first student to present is a PhD student. He doing on veneer plywood. After finish present, my supervisor asked me do you have any question to ask. I innocently asked him without any hesitation why you choose to this project differently instead of the way people use to do it. He keeps quiet for a moment before answer me. My supervisor after he finished explained said let me see your justification. My supervisor then asked me what is justification. I told him justification in research is explain why did you choose to do this project. What is the problems that arise making want to do research on it. My supervisor said I asked a good question. This is because the student didn't fully explained why he want to research on it. I'm really sorry for him. I didn't mean for him to be lectured by my supervisor. I just very curious about it and I asked him bluntly. The next two students almost the same things happen. My supervisor then asks them do they have enough time to complete the project in time. I'm feel sorry for them. At the same time, I can't understand why they have to use so complicated methods and machine that isn't available here in university just to do the research. I just think there maybe a simple method to the research and even can obtain the same result that is expected. I just can't understand. Time is limit and yet the method for their research is so complicated and hard to achieve. Yes, the result can be achieve but what if you fail to get the result you expected and then you need to re-do the whole project together. I'm understand they are doing research in master level. They want to show that they can perform well at high level. But for me, a good research is not about expensive machine or complicated method. At the end what they want to see is whether you achieve your objectives, whether you get the expected result. The beginning process is not important. What matter is you complete the race. You finished the project until the end.

The special place in my heart

My mentor asked me these not long ago. She asks did I have boyfriend. I immediately answers No. She then asks perhaps you have someone that you like. I answers No. In fact I did have someone that I like but I choose to answer No. The reason is because we are not together. We don't even start any relationship between us. The only relationship we have is friends. He is the first person who makes me fall in love truly for him. In fact, the love I have for him is sincere. I sincere like him. However, for the first time in my life, I choose not to pursue him. I want him to happy with people he loved even the person is not me. For the first time, I enjoyed being single. I enjoyed being with my loved one especially my family. I enjoy knowing that in spite of everything, God still love me for who am I. And I know He has great plans for me. And if God's plan include him, I will still meet again. And if God's plan didn't include him, I thank God because He allows him to be a part of my life, the person that I meet in the process of my long journey. To him who has special place in my heart, I truly thank you for being part of my life journey. Wherever you are, be sure that I will always be there for you.

Life as an intern

Life as an intern is not as exciting as it used to me. For me, for the past four weeks, it was the memories that I wish I will never remember it. In spite all of the difficulties I faced, it bought me to another step in knowing myself deeper. It was during practical, that I discover that this is what I have been thinking, this is how I think, this is how I doing things. Of all every person, God actually allow my nasty supervisor to know my weakness and strength. My supervisor is a typical Chinese guy where he critic more than he praise someone. The words that came from his mouth is hurtful and nasty to hear. But, he's amazing person. He can spot your best talent and make full use of it. He knows what I good and capable of. He knows what I'm lack of. That's one of the very good points about him. He trained me in a  harsh and stern way. He discipline me strictly. He puts expectation on me. I actually learn his intention in a hard way. I know he trying to build my talents up, he trying to make my talents shine. He molds me into a strong person. Someone who is strong despite any situations they face.

Together for life

Read church bulletin. One of the content in it is the marriage course. The theme for marriage course is "Together for life". Marriage is not about one person. It is about two people living till life together till death do them part. It also mean accepting weakness and strength, likes and dislikes. That what make a marriage. Even I'm not yet married, I observe this in people around me. The most closet one is my parents. Its truly amazing how God can bring them together to be husband and wife. My dad is a hot tempered person while my mum is much more gentle. Their personality totally clash with one another. But for me, it a match made in heaven. My mum always know how to calm my dad's temper. Is like in the family, my dad is the bad guy and my mum is the good guy. But, the truth is when my mum angry, her temper is hotter than my dad. That is the scarier part when a women get angry. I recently attend my cousin's wedding. I love the song that being sing at the reception. It also will be my prayer when I get married and I hope my future one will promise as what the song said to cherish me and love me always. 

The Marriage Prayer

 He:
Father, I said till
Death do us part
I want to mean it
With all of my heart
Help me to love you
More than I love her
Then I know I can
Love her more
Than anyone else

And bring her in Your presence today
Make her what You want her to be

I pray to hear her heart
I pray she'll love you more
I pray to cherish and serve her
And we'll bring you glory today, I pray

She:
Father, I said till
Death do us part
I want to mean it
With all of my heart
Help me to love you
More than I love him
Then I know I can
Love him more
Than anyone else

And bring him in Your presence today
Make him what You want him to be

I pray to hear his heart
I pray he'll love you more
I pray to strengten and serve him
We'll bring you glory today, I pray

He:
Lord help me love her
As you love the Church, Your bride
She:
Help me to submit to him
As I submit to You, my life

Both:
I pray (I pray) to hear her heart
I pray (I pray) he'll love you more
I pray (I pray) to cherish and serve her
And we'll bring you glory today, I pray

I pray to hear her heart
I pray she'll love you more
I pray to cherish and serve her
And we'll bring you glory today, I pray

This is my prayer. Amen